Wednesday, May 30, 2012
I made it. My last day of work. Ahhh. Now I can breathe. It was a good year. A really good year. I worked with two great SLPs and loved it. I love the kids and have been at this same school for three years. I was able to be a part of some really awesome stuff. Helping kids learn to communicate is always amazing. I love my job. But that doesn't mean it isn't work. It's hard. It's hard finding balance. It's HARD being a working mom. It's hard leaving your baby with a sitter. It's hard when they are sick but you have deadlines. It's just plain hard. My hat goes off to all the working moms out there. It's hard, I know. But its summer time. And that means its party time. I get to be home with my little man. No more packing bags, lunches, fixing schedules, stress. We can relax. And play. Play. Play. Play. I live this time I have with pman. I love being home with him. I love how easy our lives are when I am home. Woo hoo. I'll talk more about the job later but for now I am making fun to-do lists with pman and am getting so excited to tackle them. I left work a little early today, pman was running a fever. And even with medicine and a cool bath he is still 102.8 and climbing. My poor guy. But knowing I don't have to work or figure out the sitter and a sick baby is so comforting. I can be up all night with this boy, if he needs and I won't have to leave him in the am. Not my ideal way to kick off the summer of Kendra-Porter, but at least were together. Any fun suggestions?
Friday, May 18, 2012
I'm having a hard time with this. Blooming where I'm planted. My family has a running joke that I will be in a different house every time they come visit. Sad thing, its kinda true. Remember how I had to move from our last place? Well I really regret it. I'm wishing we stayed there. For a million reasons. But I had to move. And I'm already getting that itch now. Like, I'm ready to move again. Do you see why we don't buy a house? I've also been thinking about living abroad. It's ALWAYS been our plan to go back to Taiwan to live for a year or two. It just hasn't happened yet. And I start to wonder if it ever will. So then I search and find us jobs and a place to live in Taiwan and am shocked when the hubs doesn't agree. You see, he loves his job. Sometimes I worry its coming between us ;). But the hubs really does love it. And that's an answer to prayers. We both have wonderful jobs and I am so grateful for that. But then I start to think, will we stay here forever? Because I don't know if I can do that. Live here forever. But I would be a crazy fool to make my hubs leave an awesome opportunity of a career because I don't want to raise teens here, right? It's hard being in Limbo. I kind of like it and kind of hate it. I mainly hate it because I feel old. It rarely happens, but sometimes I think I have to keep up with the Jones. Buy a house. Wear an apron all the time etc. I know we won't always be in limbo. In fact some things will be decided at the end of this year. And then I will probably miss limbo. Oh dear. So for now, I'm trying to bloom where I've been planted. I could probably try harder...