Dear Baby, I'm sorry to do this but...

It's time. I am ready. I would like to meet you. How does anytime right now work? Maybe in a few hours? I would be greatly appreciative if something happened say tonight! Whatever happens please know it's been great spending all this extra time with you. But your Daddy is jealous and there are some people that would like to meet you. I have everything all ready for you so don't worry about being a bother. I appreciate you waiting all this time. Such a good baby already listening to mommy. But hear this "Get out". In a nice way. I just can't wait to see you and hold you and all sorts of really great stuff. Ok? Ok. Let's plan for tonight then. See you very soon.
Love, mommy

Dear the rest of you,
Don't you know its rude to read other people's mail????Just kidding. But seriously Im ready. Very ready. Went for a mile walk today, about to go walk again and plan on doing some serious, as in workout clothes and ipod walking tonight. And vacuuming. I ate pineapple. I got a pedi. Had the non-stress test. His heart rate was great and the fluid is ok. And then he fell asleep. Any advice??? If you really know of some good advice call or text me. I don't want to miss it. Remember how I wanted to be late? I did. And I'm so grateful he didn't come earlier. But I'm really ready. So bring on the labor. PLEASE.

I am....

still pregnant!

Darn it.

I was really battling some inner demons about work this week. I wanted to take some days for myself before this baby came. Days to get a pedi, finish laundry, sleep...indulge in being a single person. I went to work Monday and had the worst head ache ever. We had my Dr's apt that afternoon. I'm dilated .5 and 70% effaced. Caleb told the Dr about my ear pain and head ache. She looked in my ears and said there was a lot of fluid but it wasn't infected yet. So she told me to take some over the counter cold stuff and use rubbing q-tips in my ears. I did. I spent 11pm-1 am in pain, fell asleep and spent 3:30-7 in pain. Needless to say I didn't go to work on Tuesday. I went back to the Dr and it had turned into an infection. I've been on the meds for just over 24 hrs. I missed work again. Will probably miss it tomorrow. This is NOT what I had in mind. The ear infection is a huge pain in the ear. I had no idea. Now I am really praying this little man stays in late, I can't imagine having him while I feel this sick.

5 days and scary stuff...

Annalisa left me alone for lunch so I thought I should write an update. No baby. Yet. I'm due this Saturday. Still totally freaked out. I have a little bit of a cold so I sure hope that goes away soon. Slept like crap last night. Woke up with a headache and cried the whole way to work. I still hope he comes a week late....I just wish I didn't have to work. I feel like an emotional wreck. I cry a lot. For a long time. I miss my mom. I'm scared to become a mom. I'm scared to deliver this baby. I'm scared of 10 centimeters...I had no idea how big that really is. I'm scared of the epidural. I'm scared of my water breaking at work and terrifying some cute little kid. I'm scared of going into labor in Saratoga. I'm scared of going into labor. I'm scared of something/anything going wrong. I'm scared of being alone. I'm really just scared. Is that normal?

Maternity Pictures-Part 1

My awesome sister Kristie came to Utah to take Lylia's newborn pictures. Both my sisters are so awesome that she was able to take some belly pictures for me. She totally rocks. This one of Caleb is my favorite. As most you know he LOVES getting his picture taken so I was really lucky that he didn't mind spending his Saturday following Kristie's guide.



We both have goofy faces on this one but I love the colors. I am so lucky to have such awesome sisters. Including Kelly, who wasn't here but was in our thoughts. The whole time.

It's crazy to think that I have only a few weeks left. I am still totally freaked out and not at all in any hurry for this little guy to join us. All of his laundry is done and his bag is packed. His car seat is not in the car and his room has just a little re-arranging left to be done. I am so lucky to have my amazing mom come up when he is born and help me...even though she just left Utah on Monday.

We don't really have any other news. The hubs is very busy with 19 credits, the church stuff, and work. I'm really busy with work and shopping. So we are very busy people. We both can't wait until I can run again, the hubs is a more regular runner when he has me to keep up with, and my legs are begging to run again. I have started having braxton hicks. Not fun. I pee all the time. I'm not joking. I will go and then brush my teeth and then go again. My belly is big and yes I carry low. I just love when people tell me how I'm carrying =). Caleb is really concerned with me getting scared and popping this baby out. He is very careful not to startle me and when we went to see 2012 he kept trying to get me to leave. So funny. Speaking of movies, if you have a baby, leave them at home. There was a barely walking baby there and you know I just didn't pay to hear him cry. But don't worry I told her to leave her baby at home next time.

I was "All American"....and didn't even know it

My sister Katie had her baby. Lyla. She was 9lbs and 4ounces! Holy moly right??? She's a chunky one in the best way possible. I would post pictures but we all know how bad I am at that and it's my lunch so I'm more concerned with eating than documenting. My mom came to help my sister. Isn't my mom the best? Yes she is. BUT... she's in trouble. When I was 12 I had it set in my heart that I wanted to be famous. Yeah I know... Anyway I talked my mom into letting me go to a modeling audition. It was in L.A. and it was on a Sunday. Man was that a huge deal. But she let me go. And then she told me they didn't pick me. Something like they wanted a blond. I was heartbroken. I felt like I was the ugly one. Nothing special with me. I've never even told anyone about this because who tells people you went and were rejected?!? Not me. Anyway. My sweet mom is talking and hanging out on Sunday and night and goes "Oh remember that audition you did?" Me: "Um YEAh how could I forgot." Mom: "They called the next day and picked you." Me: "Um WHAT???" Mom:" Yep. They loved your hair you mouth, your freckles and your dimples. They said you were the "All American Girl"." Me: "I was all American..." Mom: "But your Daddy and I didn't want you in that kind of an environment." Me: "I was all AMERICAN???" Moral of the story don't lie to your kids. Especially if it's a competition. AND THEY WIN!!!! But don't worry Mom. I still love you . Your still my best friend. But I have been dreaming of the money I could have made. The house I could have bought,the car I could be driving, the sweet stuff I could have bought my baby (because I still would have married my hubs and had this baby). But at least I know now. =)