Some birthday, be strong and say a prayer

(We all joked that Porter was mainly upset that they put pink bandages on him)
I'll post more about Caleb's really awesome birthday later. Porter is sick. Very sick. Wednesday he had a fever. It is getting worse and worse. He went to the Dr yesterday and he thought it was viral and to watch Porter. Well last night it reached 106. So instead of an awesome party we ended up going to Urgent Care, then the hospital for blood work. It was a looooooooooooong night to say the least. A certain protein in Porter's blood is moderately elevated but not high enough to start medicine. I just recently read a blog link of a friend of mine who had lost their baby suddenly. I read that blog and bawled my eyes out. And then I though I could never, not ever recover from losing my baby. Last night was scary. I thought: "ok, Heavenly Father won't let anything happen to him." and then I thought: "Heavenly Father is not a respecter of persons and if it happened to that family it could happen to me". And my last thought and plead was "Please let me die and save him." Caleb held Porter while they took his little blood and he cried and cried. I turned away and cried and cried. I know a ton of prayers have been said on Porters behalf. Maybe a few more wouldn't hurt? Caleb had to go to CA on business this morning and it has been a long day and is looking like a long night. Porter was doing great until about an hour ago when his fever started creeping back up. Hopefully the ib profen will keep it down. I'm scared. I'm pretending to be strong because it wont help if I fall apart while Caleb is gone. So please say a prayer for our little man.

Porter,
It's mom. Do you know I love it when you call me "mom"?. It cracks me up. I love you. I'm sorry you are in pain. I'm sorry its a waiting game. I'm sorry you don't want food or drinks and I keep shoving them in your face. I can't lose you. I love you. The first time I thought I could lose you I hadn't even met you yet. You were in my belly and I had the swine flu. You fought that off. Fight this off. Don't let the scary facts of high fevers happen to you. I'll trade you places in less than a heartbeat if I could. I promise. If you get better I will buy you yet another ball. And I will let you tear off all the toilet paper with out saying a word because I know it makes you so happy and proud. Get better ok? Ok.
I love you,
Mom

30 favorites for your 30th

Today is the hubs' 30th birthday!!!! I've been taunting him for about a year (or two) about this birthday. We are no longer in the same age bracket. When we race we will have to check two different age categories. 30 is old. But not on you. Hubs, I know your not as into birthdays as I am but I have impulse issues, I tried to control most of them. I hope you like today. I hope you are happy. I hope you like your surprises. I hope you know how happy I am that you were born. Here are 30 of my favorite things about you for your big 3-0 birthday:
1) Your eyes
2) Your personality
3) Your iliac crest
4) Your brain, it has lots of power
5) The type of daddy you are
6) Your huge calf muscles (seriously they are huge)
7) The way you get nervous/excited before playing sports
8) Your natural athleticism, you could have gone pro babe
9) The fact that you are a good person, you genially want to be good and make people happy, the fact that you worry and feel bad if someone gets hurt
10) Your charming ways (Sometimes I have to worry about all those ladies you work with)
11) How good you look in a hat
12) The fact that you are not a good swimmer, but took a swim class at BYU to keep up with me
12) You jumped in the water (you know what I'm talking about)
13) You are the ultimate handy man
14) Your two little moles on the back of your neck
15) Your laugh (I hope to hear a lot of that today)
16) That you have never said a swear word in your life
17) You wear my handmade stuff with pride
18) The way you love to work
19) Your aspirations in life
20) You grew a beard for three months on a dare
21) When there is a ball in the room you find it and play with it (Porter has picked up on this and he is such a mini you when he does it!)
22) You would rather be outside than watch tv
23) Despite your start of college, you finished with amazing grades, in amazing time, with work and internships
24) When you speak Chinese
25) When we lived in Taiwan you would always go to my favorite food places, even if that meant we had to go to the same place 6 days a week
26) Your love of travel
27) Your thought process (that sounds totally cheesy but you are always thinking of these random things "do you ever wonder about this particular tendon and how it just ends?" I love to hear what you are thinking. Most of the time I haven't ever considered the thought!
28) Your competitive side (people probably will never know how competitive you really are)
29) Your lips (oh yeah I went there)
30) YOU! You are amazing. I love you! I'm so happy you were born.
Happy birthday HUBS!!!! We love you!

Note to self:

Do not watch "Surprise Homecoming" on TLC while running on the treadmill at the gym. You are not the prettiest sweater and certainly not the prettiest crier, put those to together and you can scare people. That and people think you are weird for crying and then laughing while you are running at an incline and a speed of 7.4.

Name them one by one...

I'm partying it up in California and having a blast and I realized I have so many things to be grateful for. So I thought of them. And then thought of more. And more! So here's a short version of my list:
~Porter
~Hubs
~Family
~Health
~Modern Medicine
~A good heart
~Legs and knees that can handle running
~Running
~Our cars
~Our jobs
~Food
~Sunshine
~Nieces and nephews
~Cousins for Porter to play with
~A healthy baby
~Frozen yogurt
~Family
~This land
~Porter's hugs and kisses and face cuddles
~Vitamin D from the source
~Friends
~Lemonade stands
~An amazing house right near my mom and one of my sisters and across from the oldest country club west of the Mississippi THAT I JUST BOUGHT!!!! Haven't told the hubs yet but I'm pretty sure he will love this surprise!

Best 4th Yet!

As you can tell from the pictures our 4th of July weekend was jam packed with FUN! We started out Saturday morning by going to the balloon festival just down the street.

Then we played all day and then went to the boys club (hubs job) work dinner. It was JDogs at the Miller Field. Wonder why? Because the boys club(Qualtrics) BOUGHT the Stadium of Fire. Yup. Floor seats. And the hubs was able to get tickets so my sister and her hubs and our friends the Price's could come! We had a blast. I was bummed when I found out who the performers were, David Archuleta and Brad Pasely. But guess what? You would have never know that I only knew two songs from each artist. I cheered my heart out. Who wouldn't? You have floor seats at a huge venue and your going to sit on your tush? Nope. Not me. My poor hubs was getting all sorts of laughs from his co-boys clubians about his crazy wife. See his hand on my leg? You probably think that's so sweet? It's not. He was holding me down so I couldn't jump up and down and scream. Luckily my sis and Crystal were good sports and danced and cheered and ran down the aisles with me! Brad Pasely was pretty much awesome. Caleb and I both became fans. The whole thing was amazing! The fireworks were so close I could feel it in my chest. It totally gave me goose bumps. Nothing like getting together to celebrate this amazing land we have! I know freedom isn't free and I'm so grateful for those who serve our Country (past, present and future). There was a dance party in the streets after and you better believe I danced my pants off (not really, I kept them on) on our walk home the hubs and I got a delish snow cone.

Sunday was Sunday. Then Monday we woke up super early and ran in the Provo Freedom Race 5k. I came in 20th in my age group. I could have done better but I thought people would line up in the right spot. They didn't and I spent the first 1.5 miles trying to get around people. Rude. After the race we went home and met up with Aaron, Quinn and Lyla and headed to the Parade. We had awesome seats. I've said it before and I'll say it again, Provo is the place to be. After the parade we went home and made crepes and then went to the freedom festival downtown. Later we went to a BBQ with friends and then lit up the sky with fireworks. Porter loved it!

I didn't forget Mom...

i just forgot to call right away. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! I'm so glad you were born! I'm so glad your my mom, and Porter's Mama. You are the best. You're my best friend. You were always my roller coaster rider, hiker, shopping, x-files watching partner. And I'll never forget that. I know I gave you some grief, and I'm sorry. But I think it made you like me even more :) I love you mom. I really truly believe that you are the best mom in the WORLD! And the best grandma! Just ask Porter. We love you. Hope you have a happy(er) day. I can't wait to party it up with you on Saturday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

15 months

Hey World,
It's me Porter. I'm 15 months old and have a lot to show for it. My favorite toy in the world is a car. I drive it on everything. If I see a car I say "vroom" until I get it and then I say it as I'm driving the car around. I love to play ball. I love to swim. I now say "Hi, vroom, ball, dog, uh-oh, mom, dada, no, yea, mmum, ouch (and a few more but my mom can't remember!). I sign "water, milk, food, dog, ball and we are working on please". I love pizza. And bread. I do not like strawberry's. My 'rents can't believe it but I just don't like them. I love to go on walks and be outside. If my mom is weeding I will help her by sitting in the dirt and putting it all over my body. She thinks this is so funny. I like to do things on my own. I love to blow kisses to people. I give high fives sometimes but I prefer to pound it (hit knuckles). I'm still one happy baby and still haven't cut my hair. You didn't think we would last this long did ya? Well I'll let you know when it happens. (I'll give you a hint: my 3rd birthday). I am 32.3 inches tall (90%) I weigh 24.1 lbs (50%) and my head is 49 cm(90%). I'm a tall skinny baby. My mom says she wishes she could freeze time and keep me at this stage for awhile. But I can't stop growing and changing. Life is great!
Love,
Porter

CA Loven

My mom, aunt, grandma, and cousin drove up from CA for a play date. And we played hard. We went to SLC, ate at the Garden (get the grilled cheese it's "award" winning ;)) went to Hatch Family Chocolate Shop, went to Park City, rode the Zip line (and loved it) went on the Alpine slide (and rode the brakes the entire way). I had a BLAST! It was so fun to see family and to play. Porter loved having extra attention. I was glad I was able to see my grandma out and about after Pa died. It was not an easy trip for them. Ma passed out a few times (once in our arms in the JSM Parking lot). This was when I realized that genes are not on my side. I will not grow old like my grandparents have. The trip was shorter and less active then we orginally planned but I loved it. Thanks for coming!

Are the Commandments literal?

Like "Love your neighbor". Do I actually have to love them? Because right now I don't. Maybe I even hate them....

PAUSE....

I need time to stop. Literally. I feel like I am losing this summer too fast. It's already July? But it can't be...that means that August is next month...that means work starts back up. And let's face it. I have no desire to leave this little buddy of mine. Staying home has rocked my world. And his (I would like to think) I love splashing in the pool and running and eating sweets and reading stories and being with him. All. Day. Long. So please please slow down time. Let this month and the first few weeks of the next take maybe five months. Ok? Ok! Because I really can't think of leaving him. Again.

Happy Birthday...

AMERICA! You really are great. I am so grateful for all the men and women and their families that have fought for our freedom and for those that continue to do so! I'm pretty sure if I were born in another country I would be dead by now. I love this land. I appreciate my freedoms that come with it and appreciate my responsibilities as an American. I know people are great at finding things to complain about when it comes to this COUNTRY but I love it. And if you don't like it (or aren't here legally) I say get out!

We started the day of with a fun 5k and then a brunch of delish crepes (so American) with the sister and her fam and then a mile run to the freedom festival and a mile run home, looking forward to our bbq and fireworks! Not to mention we had floor seats at the STADIUM OF FIRE (more posts to come). Needless to say we have had an amazing 4th of July weekend!